• i’m pissed at myself for not creating / doing creative things more often. i’m just getting fatter, lazier, and more tame every single day. i’m becoming exactly what i didn’t want. i need to exercise. stop being a fat ass. i need to make some awesome shit because that’s the only thing that makes me feel happy and validated. like good poems and songs and maybe even some visual art or something. i need to travel, i need to be more patient for warm weather and stop being such a fucking bummer to myself mentally. something is wrong with my brain. i’ll never be satisfied. i always need the weirdness or i freak out and malfunction. weirdness gets out through creativity. that i what i need to do. and exercise. and plan my next trip out of the united states.
sidenote: my job keeps me from feeling totally worthless. <3 u tumblr
